I know I have no clue of the day-to-day-in-and-out workings of your life, but I've followed and respected you for a good long time, and I know that though you've stumbled, you have made efforts to be there, hon. (The title of your thread is a case in point.)
Tomorrow is a new day, Scarlett. Get up and do something--anything different. We're here to cheer you on.