Hey saffie, thanks for asking about me. Ironically, I am ok tonight. I got knocked down but I am back. Its not about me...its not my mess....

morgan, thanks girl. You have mail.

jak, thanks for the book offer. I wasn't going to read it, but if you think it would still help my situation I will. I am going to buy it tomorrow though.

yoyo, thanks for the support. It does cut to the core, but really, I can't control it, so I am trying to rise about it.

trying:

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I guess I am going to go against the grain. Because if I was being made a fool of I would hope so bad that the other person would call me. I really would. Here the poor guy is at home thinking his wife is trying when she is out fooling around.


Yes!!! I am glad someone agrees with me. I totally understand everyone opinions, where they are coming from. But if I was the one in the dark (and have been this entire time), I would have loved someone to turn the light on for me. Especially now, when OW's H is under the illusion they are working it out. How devastating. Still don't know what to do. Wish he would call me.


Journaling:

Went out for a bit, got my hair highlighted. \:\) It was relaxing. Then went running and came home. We were polite to each other, and I spent time with D3. On my way out the door, H was STILL ordering our phones but when he realized that with the family plan, he can't get separate bills (doof), he said "Well I want separate bills". I told him I would order my own phone then. I am not going to beg him to be on my cell phone plan, puleeeeze.....