Hi gerlz - thanks for the kind thoughts. In fact I feel as if a truck has gone over me.

I have been out of town working all day to day. My phone rings at about 7pm [I am entertaining two clients - sorry that makes me sound like a tart: I really am a bonafide consultant and this was for real. It was early because we we had some more work to do.]

Anyway it is someone that I used to be good friends with about 25 -20 years ago, and she is Godmother to son 21. I told her about h's mlc at the time, two years ago [my goodness how time flies when we are having fun!] one time when she called me, and sort of picked up that she didn't really want to support me. So our contact has been minimal, and frankly I only want to discuss it with very close friends, and then not too much. But I do appreciate support, like the occasional call. Which up 'til now I haven't had from her.

You know how it is - so I was a little surprised she called, and she said was it a good time to talk, to which I said, no, not really, and explained. [I had moved away while I took the call] She then said that h called her on Friday!!!!!!

I said, look, he is completely crazy right now, and I don't want him in my life at present. She sounded rather surprised at that. I said I was working until late,[she is one of those people who goes to bed about 9 pm, and I am an owl] and she is going to call me on Friday [she is busy tomorrow].

Am I stupid to be p*ssed off that h has involved someone that we haven't been close to in years? I know why - none of our close friends will give him the time of day. Remember, if he had wanted to talk to someone he missed an opportunity when he hung up on one of his oldest friends.


He isn't sorry - he is just bugging me any way he can. I really don't want to have to explain about all the mad awful things he has done Aaaargh,

I am feeling so darned got at: I am sure he has tried to tell her that everyone has ganged up on him, and I am soooo unreasonable and a lot of other stuff.

Sorry for the vent, but every time Ilift my head above the parapet it gets shot at.

Anyway he is going back to France today or tomorrow to spendtime with OW, which should take his mind off me for a bit: I do hope so.

A