some more thoughts. I mentioned earlier that some of what he said to me when I first found out about the affair was that he didn't think I loved him/respected him. whether this was the way his male-brain works or whether is was mere justification for his actions doesn't matter...he had himself pretty well convinced of it by the time I found out.
the last few months, after finding db, I really backed off, to the point that the last couple of months I haven't even been asking how he is. I've been dark grey (as black as I can go with the kids), just nothing from me about him, and bare answers from me when he asked questions about me. all conversation was about the kids, with some basic business stuff thrown in from time to time.
I wonder now if that just reinforced in him the idea that I didn't care/didn't respect him?
or am I thinking too much here? he knows I love him...he knows i care. when he had his breakdown last month I said as much and he told me he knew. so maybe I'm just reaching here.
overthinking, yep, that's me.
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