Rollar Coasters are no longer fun

[Amy]

You both have valid points. I am just trying to see what I should do. He just called me again. I confronted him about what he said to the xwife. He said that he doesn't remember them even discussing it. (Always his way out, his bad memory) Anyway, he told me that his counselors told him that the OW was a bad idea but that he is in no way rational enough to make a decision right now so they thought he should just leave things alone with her atm. He did call me though on his 4:00 phone call not her so that is a plus. He told me he was reading his bible and really trying to do soul searching as to who he really is. He even said that his counselors said we are co-dependent on each other (DUH I HAVE TOLD HIM THIS THOUSANDS OF TIMES) and that we needed couseling.. (HELLO DO I HAVE TO HAVE A DEGREE TO GET HIM TO LISTEN). He said he would consider counseling but he still has 21 days left there best case scenario so he is really trying to get better.

I can only pray he does. Now on another note.

I am furious with my childs school right now. My S9 has bipolar and is really struggling right now with his identity(he has always been called mini-H) so he is hurting because while he loves his dad he hates what he has done to me so it is a flood of emotions and negative thoughts about himself. He cries a lot in class and has a hard time doing work so two days in a row they have sent him to the principals office to do his work and said he is using his home issues as a crutch and they can not tolerate it.

I have a meeting at 9:45 tomorrow morning but I am livid. His dad only left 11 weeks ago and we have only been in this state for 3 weeks. He is a bipolar child in a new school, in a new house, in a new town, and without his anchor, his father. I don't even know what I am going to say tomorrow but I am so mad I am glad I have 17 hours to cool off before I meet with them.