The bomb was dropped for me on Oct 4th 2007. I thought we had been trying the last 3 times, but it appears I had not found the wise words of Michelle on how to act. Now that I have found it I never felt better following her plan. I have learned to love and value myself again. My husband is still living in the house just in a different room now, we have a 10 yr old son. He said he wants out, has an OW, and said he is not in love with me anymore...blah, blah, blah. I have really learned how to tame my reactions now but still things seem to grip me with adrenalin and fear. Just now he called me at work to have me fix a toll road bill(i was the primary on the account), never said please or thank you. So I did that, but in the midst he says "I am going out Saturday night". I said Ok, I had thought I would go to another halloween party and had been waiting for him to reply if he would go with me or not. My mistake, he has now said about twice" Oh, they were having a party?" So obviously he is still totally tuned out to me. So I said" I hadn't said yes or no yet to them that I would go, so you can go out". Then I emailed him later(probly shouldn't have) and said "About Saturday night, just don't stay out all night as this is hard to explain to our son and that should be your responsibility". That was all I said...but I felt the rush of heat and emotions come up through my body as I had to sit and try to be calm and figure out how to react!! aaaaagh, this is so HARD! Now when I go home tonight, how should I act, and how should I be until Saturday comes and goes?? I think I know what I am supposed to do, but acting upon it is so much harder! I just need some support and guidance from people who have been there...Please help me.
I have really learned how to tame my reactions now but still things seem to grip me with adrenalin and fear. Just now he called me at work to have me fix a toll road bill(i was the primary on the account), never said please or thank you. 
So I did that, but in the midst he says "I am going out Saturday night". I said Ok, I had thought I would go to another halloween party and had been waiting for him to reply if he would go with me or not. My mistake, he has now said about twice" Oh, they were having a party?" So obviously he is still totally tuned out to me. So I said" I hadn't said yes or no yet to them that I would go, so you can go out". Then I emailed him later(probly shouldn't have) and said "About Saturday night, just don't stay out all night as this is hard to explain to our son and that should be your responsibility". That was all I said...but I felt the rush of heat and emotions come up through my body as I had to sit and try to be calm and figure out how to react!! aaaaagh, this is so HARD! Now when I go home tonight, how should I act, and how should I be until Saturday comes and goes?? I think I know what I am supposed to do, but acting upon it is so much harder! I just need some support and guidance from people who have been there...Please help me. 
