if you are not seeing a C get one pronto, you will need it as this sitch will streach out for months. It is unbearable and I also cried at work, but it will get better, you must tell yourself that you CAN make it on your own. I know it is a thought you can' bear, but for your own sanity you must have plan B "what if he doesn't come back" , figure out how things would be, financially, about the kids. Once you make a plan you will feel better, I promise, it will set you free.
Focus on yourself right now, do things to make you happy, give your bedroom a makeover, make plans to go out with friends when the kids wont' be home, WORK OUT, it willdo wonders for you. I started by buying used tae bo tapes and working out after the kids went to bed. I droped 17lbs and my body felt good. Join a reading group, keep busy, whenever your mind is idle is a perfect ground for depression to spread, don t let that happen.
You can make it, and you can become a better person in the end, you will be ok, you did just fine before you met him, find that strong independent woman you were before you knew him, she is there.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
