It's all very frustrating. I guess I'm glad she's still here but seeing her go through this withdrawal of the OM is killing me. Trying to lead my own life still but knowing that she's not even close to thinking about being with me is a big challenge to my PMA.
W and I had a discussion last night. She has ended the R with OM, but has been very distant the past few weeks. She told me that she had gone to see a lawyer this past week. Its been a while since the D word has been mentioned, so this was a bit of a surprise. We talked a bunch about what she was feeling and what her expectations were. I told her that part of her hesitation on working on our R was because of feelings she still has for OM. She denied that and said that it was due to her not have the feelings she should have for me. She is saying that she still doesn't have the feelings for me, doesn't think that there is anything that can be done to get the feelings back and doesn't want to in the first place. I feel your pain about knowing that the W doesn't want to be with you, but I am also somewhat comforted by the fact that she is still in the house and agreeable to counseling and talking.
