lovely. just picked up s5 from school and was talking to a friend and apparently there has been a suspicious man that has been driving around our neighborhood. he sounds really creepy, my friend said a known pedophile has been hanging out in the woods nearby and there is talk that it is the same person.
fan-freaking-tastic.
on other news, I started "what could he be thinking" and its pretty interesting. a little pat, a bit too much stereotyping here and there, but I'm finding myself facinated all the same...some interesting stuff on the differences between how men and women think. one thing in particular hit me...when the bomb first hit, H told me he didn't think I even loved him anymore, and that I didn't respect him. I was floored...I love this man so much respect him so much, have told him so many many times, have shown it in so many ways. but reading this, I guess its like love languages in a way, it makes me realize he may not have seen what I was showing him.
really interesting. a couple of lightbulb moments for me. at the same time, it all just feels like I'm too late...too late for any of this. he's gone.
he called when he knew I would be out, btw, getting s5 from school. he won't be able to come by tonight after all. can't say that I'm bummed.
now here is a question. I feel like this week has been interesting, cracking that window and asking how he is doing and such. my question is, he has backed off so much, is this coming across as pursuing? I can't tell if its working or not, to tell the truth. he seemed pleased to hear me ask at first, definitely thrown off by it for sure, but again, it feels like either too little too late, or pursuing.
what do you all think?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
