Oh also he asked me to come see him at the psychiatric hospital this weekend becaue I am flying into town. I really want to but I feel like I shouldn't, I feel like it will be a big step backwards for me. Also, he told xwife that I told him I was coming and he had to say in it. The truth his he begged me to come. I told him I probably couldn't because I was flying in strictly to work and my boss is paying for the trip.

I feel like if I show he is using it to tell people "see how controlling she is... I told her not to come." I am not sure how to handle this but it is another game and I don't want to end up losing at it. If I go he will say I did it against his will and if I don't go he is going to throw in my face how little I care about him.

I feel like I am back in highschool.

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"