Rollar Coasters are no longer fun

[Amy]

I agree with you Bryan. I am just so torn. I feel like he wants someone to make a decision for him so he doesnt have to and then when we do we will be damned for doing it. He treats me horrible until I finally say ok I am done I am moving on and then he pulls this with me and ignores her. I guess looking back over all I wrote you are right the only difference now is he is at least locked up in a safe place where he can not hurt himself. I am trying not to let his games get to me but it is hard. I also have to admit I am really finding it easier each day to detach from him. I find each day that I find it a little easier to look at a future without him. I feel guilt about that because I feel it is my duty to stand by him but I am just getting so tired. Between raising five children alone and dealing with him I am completely worn out.