Finding the balance in the middle of everything that is going on is really tough. When my W got back from her trip, we were pretty close - Sleeping together (just sleeping!), we'd kiss occasionally and she'd be responsive to ILY with ILYT. Last night she told me that physical contact made her feel uncomfortable and she wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do. My W and I have been really good friends throughout the whole situation - We've gone places together, worked on little projects and all of that stuff. Sometimes she'll say it's because she is trying to make the transition easier for us, other times she will say that she needs me as a friend and can't imagine living without me. I'm sure there is truth to both parts - Usually when she's angry or in a bad mood, I get more of the "I'm being nice" rather than "I need you", but that's par for the course.
I used to be scared of being alone, but after last week and realizing that our R was better when we're alone gave me some hope. I guess sometimes you feel more alone with people around you than you do when you're by yourself but with good and healthy contact with other people. Is it important right now to know where your H is living? Maybe, maybe not - If he has gone dark, then it's probably not really going to matter a whole lot. As long as he knows where you are if he wants to start working on the R, then you're probably in the best position you can be right now.
