NikkiB #21

[NikB]

Didn't get to finish my post because H is hovering constantly!

Anyway... picked out some paint chips and I want to find something really pretty. It's gonna be hard to match the dark green carpet. Any ideas are welcome! Green and brown sounds so blah... but not a lot looks good with this green... really want to make it a pretty room though.

H is acting sooo weird. I thought before was weird, now is weirder. After the last bomb I stopped with any hugs, kisses beyond the "friendly kiss on the cheek," that kinda thing. I'll reciprocate (halfway) but that's about it. The first couple days H almost seemed relieved. Now? I think it's freaking him out.

This AM he cheerfully said "Bellydancing tonight?" - I said yes and he was all happy. I ended up not going to bellydancing.. my ankle kinda hurt and I was just NOT in the mood and decided to be nice to myself rather than force myself to go. I went to the hardware store and got cabinet knobs for the closet area in my new room, and picked up some paint chips. Funny... I got home around the time I'd normally get home from bellydancing and H literally pulled in RIGHT behind me. Second time it's happened so he sheepishly said "I'm not stalking you I swear!"

And tonight he kept touching me. Holding his arm across my back, around my shoulders, etc. And Tuesday has been his (newest) "party night" so that was odd too. And asking me over and over where I got things. Just one example, I bought some really tasty tomatoes on my last day of my trip.. he asked me 3 times within 10 minutes "Where'd you get these again?"

Just weird...

On the positive side I'm detached enough to realized he's being weird and just ignore it.

I so hope that couch / bed ends up fitting and looking good in my new room. I'm more and more excited to make it my own little space.