I don't know if I should continue to DB.

[forward]

H mentioned D proceedings again today. Wants to talk tomorrow. I am so very nervous.

He was a little mean to me tonight, too. Criticizing me with the baby. He had not been nasty to me like that for quite a while. It's as if he has to find a reason to be angry with me again?

I told H that we missed him--and then, specifically, that I missed him--when I told him about my trip to see his family. DB C told me to be willing to be a little vulnerable. I did not dwell but I did tell him that.

I am just tired of feeling rejected. When I visited his family, I realized H has been rejecting me for a long time.

W8ing, you asked if anything had precipitated the sudden mentioning of D and I do not note anything. Perhaps something on side of OW, I do not know.

I was indeed pleased to hear that grandmother and brother do not like OW. But as I repeated, they will stand by him and her, not me.