no contact......how do you survive.....

[yawmom]

I'm trying the NC--got a question though.
How do you make bills? I mean , H calls weekly (truck driver so not home) to find out if I have enough money -- which I don't. It's now 3 weeks of promising he'll send money. I want to call him tonight and ask about it. One week was only $12 !! I've got bills, and he tells me so sincerely that he knows they are half his and that he helped with the debts. I work but my checks won't cover only half.
So now what?
Last spoke to him Friday, I didn't want to contact him, but car payment is due. I told him I wouldn't pay the cell bill since he's using it all to call OW.
Last we spoke he said it's not as if he's in a hurry to file - what does that mean?
It's ONLY been 5 months << although it seems an enternity. I keep screwing up too--"ILY"s and crying etc. I really need NC for me. But I need to pay bills too.
So I'm ready for input...please.