when I speak, or do the most innate thing, I want it to mean something.
I suspect that the things you say and do DO mean a lot...its pretty difficult to feel like it when you're receiving nothing but negative feedback. Grains of sand piled on top of each other become mountains--and so do the seemingly un-noticed acts of service you give each day. I hope that you receive the appreciation you deserve someday.
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I will do what I need to do
This is all you can do. If you're not getting what you need from them, you have to find ways to take care of yourself. Even if it means you risk being accused of not pulling your weight. (Which just makes me stew for you, because that's really not fair...reality is though, that life isn't fair and your W sees things from her perspective, and there is little you can do about that beyond giving yourself the gift of some time/activities that make you feel more whole.)
I like your plan of continuing your meetings and getting out of the bad work environment you're enduring. Every little step forward will get you moving in the direction you want to go. Good luck with the interview!
