Hey Sues and B, I am a queen of snoopers too. I have a similar job as you. I have been in investigations for several years now so being able to find out information comes easily for me. My H hates it! Especially since he is doing something wrong it didn't take long for me to find out and with whom. I am trying really hard to nto snoop anymore. No more checking. I have found out the hard way that "knowing" only hurts me more. I know enough. My problem now is that I still have urges to snoop but it's to see if he's made any "good" changes, maybe that he's stopped. But I can't do that either because then that's not really going dark and it's not detaching. I'm of the same mind frame, I'd rather know now.
And B, it's not weird. That's exactly how I feel. We had drifted apart too but with all this happening, it has made me realize the same thing, how much I do love my H and want our family together. The GAL is hard for me because I have always focused on my kids or H before me so it's a definite 180. I'm trying and I think I will get the hang of it. I have just got to stop reacting!!
LuvMyHusband Me: 41 H: 43 ch: 3 M: 7+ T: 10+ Bomb: EA 8/07, A over phone/net 10/07 Seperated: 9/07 H ended A/EA with OW again on 1/2008 Reconsile: 3/26/2008, H admitted PA