Husband, Thanks for making me have a good chuckle. I think I messed up. Last night while we were sleeping, I was half asleep and got "frisky". My wife was asleep but started to respond but when we were finished, she was angry that I had woken her up. I know it was selfish for waking her up but my sexual urges clouded my logical thinking. I know it sounds like an excuse but I realize I was selfish but I'm so attracted to my wife that my sexual urges do get in the way. Here's what I emailed this morning: Just wanted to let you know that I know there is no excuse for waking you up at night. The timing of that is selfish on my part and I apologize. I realize that is something that still has to be worked on. I'm not making excuses, it's just that I have feelings for you that way and I am not perfect, I'm only human and I know I will make mistakes from time to time but I will work hard to learn from my mistakes and try to find a solution. I don't want to ignore things like I had in the past. I want to always take responsibility when I make a mistake and try to learn from it. With everything that has been going on, I just want to connect to you and feel closer and being intimate is one way that makes me feel that way. I know it has to be both ways and I'm sorry. My sex drive sometimes takes over my logical thinking and I need to work on that. I know it is selfish when I do that but I don't mean to be selfish, it's just the attraction and wanting to feel close to you that clouds my thinking. I know you need time to sort everything out and you are not ready for that yet and I am sorry but please just know it's done out of love and for wanting to share that with you. Please try to be patient as I try to work on that.
