I think the main reason I'm *thinking* about things these last few days is (1) since my surgery, I'm obviously a bit slowed down and (2) like I said, H is on a side trip and it kind of reminds me of one of his "shenanigans" (as he calls them).
He had been deployed when our first son was about 2 or so. He was w/ a group and they went out partying, etc. There was this woman who worked at the hotel they were staying at. She knew he was married & had a son. She ended up using her master key to the hotel & went into his room after he had gone back to the hotel all tanked up.
I guess knowing he is somewhere new & different right now, meeting new people, I get paranoid that it would be a *good opportunity,* you know?
Anyway, then last night, I mentioned that S3 had been keeping my mom & I up for all hours and he said he couldn't wait to have to stay up all night w/ S3. It made me feel guilty. I don't think he was trying to make me feel guilty, but at the same time, it's like "yeah, I understand what you are saying, but how long will that last before it gets old for you too?" I didn't really say that, but it makes me kind of irritated/mad that I feel guilty b/c I know he misses the boys, but I've been doing this alone for how long now?
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
