I'm sorry you are having such a hard time at the moment Neph.
I think it's a good idea to do a combination of both journaling and burning!!! Write down all your thoughts; even those you generally would not voice and feel bad inside for having. All the really hurt and angry ones - all the things you could do to get your own back etc.etc. etc.... Get it all out, nothing is too vile - just do it - and then burn it so no -one else ever knows what you are thinking but you have voiced those things and then let go.
Then sit and think about the things you want from the future and all the things that make you feel nice, happy, safe, loved and lock those thoughts in your head and your heart.
Like the rest of us you are human Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength