When H got home I talked to him about these conversations he had been having with this old friend. Especially when I looked when I got home and in it, he is now trying to move her to another email, and she is telling him that she feels like they can really talk, and she can tell him anything. I tell him this is really worrying me, as its just not appropriate, he get really angry says he has done nothing wrong, just catching up with a friend after 20 years. We go around on his for awhile, and he says its over once he finds some place else to live he is leaving. So I tell him that is his choice, and decide I want to go for a drive, which I do and tell him, I call home while I am out, only after about 20mins or so, and he has gone, tells my D he is leaving and doesn't care where I am, while I am on the phone with d my Mum calls screaming at me, because D has called her and told her its happening again. I try calling h, to no avail, I go home and try h again, this time he answers and says he is coming home. We go around this again, he doesn't see what he did wrong, and wount cut himself off from friends, he has done nothing wrong, and is not sending this women any thing inappropriate, and he makes sure he doesn't word things in ways that could be considered in appropriate. He says he wants to stay, we leave it at that for awhile, and I call my Mum as I had yelled at her pretty good, because she basically was saying it was all my fault. So she tells me D tells her that everyone is trying to please me and I just keep yelling and screaming at everyone. So I call h out and say I think I should leave, I am screwing the kids up, and nothing he does is good enough for me, its obvious, he tells me he doesn't want me to go. But we keep coming back to the same thing, and he wount give up friends. So here we are this morning, still basically the same, we did hold hands a couple of times in bed but nothing more... This morning I told H I don't think we should get matching tattoos yet, we are supposed to go tomorrow, he wasn't happy. So I sent an email, and said that I am sorry for everything that has happened, and that I hope we can work this out to something we are both happy with, emailed back and said that he knows we can and we should still get that tats as it shows our bonds.
So what do I do, what does this mean?!!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
