I had a very hard time with no contact in the begining.

He was so far away and I had the kids.

But as time went by it got easier.

After going through therapy and dealing with some of my own issues, I became stronger and the "need" was gone.

I began to feel that I had some control over my life, and I could make my own choices and trust my own decisions.

I kept a journal.
I posted here.
Got involved wth church
I went for walks.
Worked in the garden, mowed the lawn.
Reorganized closets.
Tried out new recipes.
Painted the house in colors that made me happy.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.