Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

I just feel so angry. I have never been like this. I've always been a little hot headed, but lately, I really feel just plain out of control. Right before H left, I was seriously depressed. I was prescribed meds. I never took them. I feel out of the depression, but I'm starting to wonder if I really am unstable. Something just clicks and I go off. There seems to be no stopping me. It just has to run its course, but the course is so detructive. There's got to be a better way. I have to find it. I don't like who I am like this. This is not how I want to live.