Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

Thanks everyone. I think I kind of blew it today. So much for my anger goal. I really dont know what triggered it. I just snapped. Actually, I do know what triggered it. I just got sick of H not following through with his word. I'm tired of the empty promises, I'm tired of doing the work of two parents. I'm tired of taking responsibility for his and my flaws. I'm just plain tired, and today I let it get the better of me.

I totally instigated a fight. It actually wasn't a huge blow up, but I know I said all the wrong things. I told him I was tired of accommodating him, tired of empty promises. I said the kids deserve a full time father, not an occasional visitor. I told him I deserve a full time H that wants to be with me, who values who I am and what I have to offer--somene who will not throw it away so easily.

You know what he said? "You're right". Then he said he would come and get the rest of his things by the end of the week.