Hi everyone,

I have not been on here for about 2-3 months. Unbelievable! Well, I finally came to terms with the fact that I am better off without my H. He has some serious issues and time has let me become a better person. My H lies are still uncontrollable and I try to avoid him as much as possible. At one point, he was coming over to my house or calling again, "trying to be my friend" but I figured that this was because he was off again with the OW or they had an argument. A week after all of his sincerity, he was rude to me and I thought, I don't have to take this anymore and I don't want to be on his rollercoaster. I am choosing to finally get off the ride....so I did. I told him that I don't need his friendship, I just need him to be a father to the kids and that I am completely finished with him and to let me live my life. I told him that I have friends and family that love and care about me and would never do the things that he has done to me. I basically, told him that there is no room in my life for him. I reminded him that there will be a point that I may be able to be civil with him, only for the kids, but that is all in my time. I've had it with his rudeness and telling me that I really should respect the OW because she is a part of the kids lives....he is so absolutely crazy! So, I have continued to focus on myself, I just finished being a part of the Relay of Life for the American Cancer Society and I am now getting ready to walk in the Breast Cancer 3-day (donatations welcome \:\) ) in two weeks. I feel awesome...I read a quote that completely belongs to me and other woman in our situations...."I am not what I was, I am the woman who has awoken." Of course, you men can change the woman to man. All I know is I look great and feel great and that is what matters.