mk, take a break. I order you to take a break from this for the next 24 hours. seriously. get it out of your mind. try. watch a movie that makes you bawl your eyes out. watch a show that makes you laugh your ass off. something, anything. you need to release this pent up emotion somehow. take a kickboxing class. pull out an old tae bo tape. something.
He is not the enemy, honey. he is a screwed up lost soul who has been stupid and idiotic and fogged up enough to f up his life with you and his kids. as far as I know, he is not endangering them or you. he is making life tough for you, yes, he is hurting you, yes, but he is not, again as far as I know, doing things that will cause you guys real harm.
am I wrong here?
you need to get your mind on yourself and moving yourself forward. I'm a little bit worried about you. I think you get sucked into the anger. trust me, I understand the anger...I do. I get so mad sometimes I want to hit things, and I am NOT a violent person by any means. try not to focus on H anymore. He's a big loser wannabe emo person. you are a strong, beautiful, vibrant, passionate, wonderful woman who has a real future ahead of her. look at what you were able to do last weekend....you didn't let anything stop you or hold you back. you moved forward, you even had some fun.
take care, mk. if you ever need it, my e-mail is morganagain at gmail.com. I know you are wary of phone calls with internet people, but if you ever need it, I will e-mail you my cell number. you can caller id block your own if that helps you be more comfortable. I'm here if you need to talk.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
