Still Dancin'

[Gone Dancin']

Thanks Sunny, Nomo, Christa, and Heim!

Sunny,

Sounds like a great weekend all around, & beginning it w/your shopping adventure was a good way to start.

It was a good way to start the weekend. I was very glad I did it after the fact. It was a kind of a "breaking out of my fear" move, and I felt a lot more emotionally free as a result. Good stuff, really.

And yes, great weekend too! Had lots of fun with my friends -- actually quite a bit of flirty fun, but I kept it light and constantly maintained my boundary, even after my night of drinking ! Couldn't believe that one -- you know, with inhibitions depleted and all!

The scene with the BF reminded me of 6'4" Nomo's handshake with OM, standing over the table with his wife sitting there.

Well, not quite. For one, I'm only 5'10" , and I'm really not sure if BF did recognize me. We've only been around each other 3 times, and I don't know how focused he ever was on me. Plus, he probably would've never expected me to do some shopping there. Hard to say, but at least I didn't feel like slugging him this time -- that's a first (detachment/acceptance?).

The 2 all over you might have been a little over the top

Most definitely. I think they meant just being real flirty though (not climbing all over me like an Axe body spray commercial). Artificially spawning jealousy wasn't part of my motivation -- just wanted to be natural.

It's fairly evident to me why your W was/is with him, as it's also somewhat easy to guess as to why they appear to have hit the rough road. Happens when you jump into a new R to fill a void/need of some kind, & find that it ultimately is a short term fix, something most of us are vulnerable to after a break-up.

You're right, Sunny -- I know you are. It is also how sweet he was early on (from what her friend has told me). However, I guess it surprises me that she's still with him. With such an apparently current grim R sitch with them, she would still rather stay there than ask me for help or come back and work on us. It is amazing to me, but then again I really don't know the extent of the pain I caused her. I know I was horrible in some aspects, but don't know HOW bad it hurt her (but it was obviously pretty bad for her to be living the way she's living and being content with it). I'm really curious as to how long she's going to continue this R. Who knows, maybe they'll fix it and be happy together (jeez! can I stop thinking about this crap?!).

Hey Nomo,

Thanks for the update - you sound good!

Yeah, if I could stop thinking about W so much I'd be SO MUCH better! I seriously need to push thoughts about her out of my mind as soon as they show themselves. Unfortunately, I apparently revel in the obsession. Like drugs, I know it's bad for me, but it feels so good to not let go of it...

Heim,

Glad you just did it and didn't go nuts at the sight of BF. And, c'mon, of course he recognized you.

I may never know if he did or not. Gotta try not to concern myself with it, as seducing as it is to think about.

Too many comments about hopping and young women and dancing running through my head. Too many options, my brain's freezing up

LOL! Funny stuff, brotha. It probably sounds better than it was. I did enjoy the slow blues dancing though. Snug body-to-body, slow rhythmic dancing -- pulsing to the sensual beat of the music... Oh, sorry! Are you okay Heim? .

W and I are now officially alternating weekends with the kids. I will now be going downtown every other weekend for salsa dancing! Whew, talk about "caliente!" I'll also be holding poker night every other weekend now, too. My costume party is this Saturday, so I'm getting my house ready for that now. Gonna be an awesome time!

Wow, Sunny -- guess maybe I do know how to GAL like a mofo!

GD