Thanks for the encouragement. Right now I just want my STBXW's walls to come down so she can see some hope, some reason. She is so closed off by pain and resentment right now.... Right now mentally I'm doing ok, just very weary. My body on the other hand feels SO exhausted. Like I've been run over by a semi every single day. I keep hoping that I can keep food down when I eat. I was dry heaving this morning from anxieties that I don't even know where from. But I don't want to keep taking anti-anxiety drugs. It just makes me sleepy and probably going to get me addicted....
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
