The veredict is in about my H's job sitch.

The probation period (not regular probation, the warning they gave him to either shape out of be let go) is not over, however, the dept. feels he still is not meeting their expectations and could easly be let go, though they have seen him really really try his darnest to do things right (he gets there with 1.5hrs to spare), etc.

So they gave him the choice before the time is up, to apply for another position ( he did it once during training and hated it) until at least the regular probation time is up, and then he could try again to join the rest of the other officers.

He's already applied, he is keeping his job and that is a blessing (he was told they usually don't give people this kind of chances) but he sounded really down (of course) this is a huge blow to him.

This also sets us back, as far as piecing our marriage back... I want to be strong, it is hard not to have my emotional/affecion needs meet for so long(don't want to sound selfish but you know what I mean), so I pray that I become safe place for him during this time.

It could always be worse but my H is having a hard time seeing this, he loves his job.

I was at the store today, and there was this lady with a friend, she kept grunting loudly and making signs, I gathered she was mute. Later his friend tells me she is also deaf. She prob grew up in her country with no schooling, because that's all she could do, point. The cashier asked how she became this way, her friend said "when she was a little girl, her father was killed in front of her and they piled 45 more corpses on top of him, since, she hasn't been able to talk" she was in her mid 30s...

Keep counting my blessings here...


Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.