I know, it's just hard and I have days I wonder if I have what it takes to stick it out. And while I have no idea if a separation will be good for us or not I do feel somewhat relieved to take a break and not have to worry so much about the bad days. I'm keeping hope alive by remembering that she does still love me and that if I can in fact stick it out and show her what I can be, there is a good chance we'll have another shot. And at least she does still have her doubts and wants to hope it can work out.
I figure the separation will go one of two ways. We'll either take some time to ourselves and then start talking and sharing and going on dates again, or she'll just continue to shut me out and we'll drift apart. I have to figure out how to keep the door open and keep the connection alive without pursuing or seeming needy.
