Nomopo's Thread

[Nomopo]

Hi TB and CVA,

Thanks for stopping by and thanks for the support!

We we best friends and we did almost everything together by choice. Not having someone to share the day-to-day with is the hardest so I know how you were feeling.

Well said TB. One comment, though: I do have other options to share the day-to-day, and so will you. But even if being alone isn't a/the problem/fear, it is still hard to realize that your R with your WAS is ending in this way too. It's just a sad thing.

Take care and keep your PMA up too.

One other thing I didn't mention in my first post. As I laid in bed thinking about this sadness, the thought occurred to me to tell W about it and see how she reacted. I quickly dismissed that thought.

W called a few minutes ago, after I started this new thread. She had a question about S7's school. It was quick call. I guess I sounded a little flat, although we purely discussed business. She asked at the end, "are you doing ok?" I quickly perked up my voice/tone, and said, "Yeah, I'm great! Thanks." She said "ok," and that was it. Bringing up the sadness would only be pursuit, and would do no good. I have to deal with this on my own, but that is hard because W and I turned to each other for so long to deal with this sort of stuff. She can relate, but she can't comfort. She is obviously in the thick of it with me too, and putting that Matzah ball out there would just make things more awkward/difficult. To quote my buddy NDDT: "It is what it is."

Also forgot to mention that this weekend W and I and the kids are driving to Austin to meet W's cousin (yes, CIL for those who have followed me a long time), CIL's father and CIL's twin 13-year olds for a football game. It is the first time the four of us (Nomo, W and kids) have done anything other than a meal together since the June 11th S-day (unless am I forgetting something). Months ago, I bought tickets for all of us, including W and told her she was welcome to come if she wanted. She chose to come. I'm a little nervous. I think I'd be happier and have more fun if she wasn't going. We are sharing a hotel room (W and D4 in one bed, me and S7 in the other). I plan to try to be as easy going, nice and pleasant as possible. And to have fun - yeah, you go Fun Nomo!

Later,
Nomo