we all have our triggers, mk. at least you recognize that. the thing is, to try to combat them. trust me, I haven't figured it out. I have certain mantras that work occasionally, but boy do I get swept up sometimes when the right button is pushed.
wow about your mom after all these years.
okay, zen place. close your eyes...think of...think of...think of david brent's music video. go on, you want to. or if that is too sappy, think of the dance. yeah, that's it, the dance.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
smiling. I am thinking about that music video he made of "If You Don't Know Me By Now." He is from the Office UK. I hate Jim ad Pam because they had an emotional affair at work. Am I wrong, but are they the classic cheaters? They feel so entitled to be together because they always joke at work. They make me sick.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
oooh...ya know, I suppose dawn and tim did too. but I still love them. interesting, mk, tim broke up with rachel even w/o dawn because he knew his heart was elsewhere.
yeah, jim and pam definitely had an ea. and I loved it before...looking at it now, well, that's harder. neither was married, which to me does make a difference. still. ouch.
okay, out of the bad place. back to david brent dancing. or his video. ahhh, the video.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
How many more hours before I tell this horrible man off? He has left three voicemails and I have not picked up. I set it up so that I will not be available at any pick up for two weeks straight. There is no need for any contact and yet, and yet, I still have to hear about this horrible man and the gossip surrounding his affair. Granted it is no where near as bad as Donna has had to deal with and for that at least I am grateful. But the trigger is that this little bartramp along with working in a coffee shop and pet store also works in an adult boutique filled with porn and sex toys. Can you imagine the kind of disgusting character she is? That just bothers me to no end. I am livid that he lies that he is having an affair and that he is living with her and her friends when it is as clear as day. he disgusts me and even though they live 20 miles away it is not far enough from the gossip to reach my home and my D6's school. I do not want this trash anywhere near my precious D6 who has never hurt a fly. My God, she is telling people her father is dead because that is better than saying that he lies about where he lives. I tried what her Dr said, and said when I know where Daddy lives I will let you know. You can always ask Daddy yourself. She says he has lied since she was in my tummy. her whole value system has been shake to its new tiny little core. Oh. I am getting real Mama Bear here. I am fuming and it is not even that time of the month.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
Morgan, thank you. Not only do you know how I feel about special days, and blue days, you know how to cheer me up. I am so grateful that our H's left us the same spring. No, wait that did not come out right! What I meant to say is that you came into my life at the right time!!! Silly me.
Last edited by mkultra; 10/22/0707:59 PM.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
