We talked quickly this morning about what was happening tues and wed.
He just rang me again to discuss the arrangements for the full week
today - d is with me. I will be picking her up from after school care (ASC)
tuesday - h will pick d up from school @ 3pm. I will need to pick her up from his work at 6pm. He has got clients from 4.30pm -6pm and then a class from 6-7pm. (he is a personal trainer/fitness instructor). d will either hang round in the office or 'help' him set up for his 6pm class - not sure.
wednesday - I will have to rush home to pick d up from ASC and then bring her back into the city for my waterpolo game at 7pm. h is working till at least 6.30pm so he can't help me out unless I drop d up to him. I can't do that as it will mean I'm late for my game (his work is further away from the city than our place).
Thursday - he will pick her up from school and I will pick her up from his work at 6pm. I think he is working from 5pm -9pm. d willhave to sit in office while she waits for me.
Friday - I will pick her up from ASC
Saturday morning - d has swimming lessons 8.30-9am and then gymnastics lessons from 9.30 - 11am. h indicated that he would like to watch her. After last w/e debacle he has changed his plans so that he can look after her this Saturday night. I was hoping that I could have the afternoon off (maybe go get waxed..or get some housework done...or sleep..whatever) and then go out that night (not that I have plans yet). h said he wanted to spend time with me _and_ d (I can't get my head around this) so I suggested going down to the marina if it's a nice day. He suggested the movies ( i like this idea better, less conversation, but however, more groping opportunity for him -though he would be mega p1ssed to read that I refer to it as groping - so I'm still anxious). Then I stupidly said that I didn't have plans for that night but that I wanted d to go to h's new place and stay there. h was hurt and a bit upset that I didn't want to spend time with him adn that I'd rather be on my own if I didn't have plans to go out. I pointed out that this is basically what I wanted from him while we were married (spending time together) and that now we are separated I would like a chance to reconnect with my friends. He doesn't seem happy with that.
I feel like I ahve trapped him into ending the marriage and that deep down it's what I wanted all along, so now I've got my way and I'm trying to move on, he is getting upset. Perhaps he was DB'ing in his own way???
I don't get it. I tried to say that I wouldn't always want to spend time apart from him but that's what I need now. I don't think it came out that clearly though. He is just saying "whatever, if that's the way you want it" and withdrawing again. Man....can't the guy just back off? This is making want to run screaming to the hills!!
this reminds me of "if you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't.....hunt it down and kill it (heh...I can't remember the proper original quote in it's entirety)
Help! Do I have to be a mean beyatch and have him think that I hate him and never want to see him again?????? Becuase if he keeps carrying on like this, I don't really want to see him, it is too tense and nervewracking.
