Hey all -- starting my new thread after a Lindy Hopping weekend at the Sun Valley Jazz Festival!
What a blast! Had lots of fun dancing, mixed with a little me-time and a little drinking. Great music all weekend long too!
So, Dave and Heim...
Two of the girls that I was staying with and I ended up going to my W and BF's store to get our groceries as planned (since it was the logical and practical thing to do). At first I was pretty anxious, but after a few minutes I settled in and things were just natural. Then, low and behold, BF rounds the corner and has to ask us to let him and his stocking cart by. We made eye contact, but I'm not quite sure if he recognized me or not (though I'm fairly sure). Seriously, the first thought that entered my mind was, "Damn that guy is ugly!" lol Seeing him there actually boosted my confidence a bunch, simply because I know that, not only have I become a better person through all of this, but I'm much better looking than this guy. He had to come back by a minute later, and actually tapped me on the shoulder and VERY politely asked me if I could let him through again. Of course, I was very polite back and let him through, and just acted like seeing him was no big thing for me (and for the first time it really wasn't!). Of course it was also nice having two good looking young ladies with me too! They were pretty mind-boggled at what my W would be doing with that guy too, so that was nice to hear (I guess). They also joked around that they could be all over me if he or my W came into the picture, but I told them no and that I wasn't interested in playing that card, (as fun as it sounded!).
Didn't end up seeing my W at all, but I saw her car in the parking lot and knew she was there. I purposely made sure to never look toward the area of the store where she spends the majority of her time, and also kept my back to that area as we were going through the check out. We were in the store for a good 30 min. Definitely not as bad as I thought it was going to be, and I'm glad I didn't let our sitch dictate where I went shopping. I will not go out of my way to avoid her, even if the situation is awkward. We will have to be in these situations to fully heal from this experience, so it's probably better not to avoid them.
Again, don't know if BF realized it was me, and also don't know if W noticed me at all since I never looked in her direction. Didn't run into or see any of her coworkers that I knew either. This could've all went down and she doesn't even know about it! Kind of funny to think about that... Even if BF did recognize me, it's hard to say whether or not he will even mention it to W.
So, that's the story folks. I went down a new tunnel, and though I kind of avoided directly seeing my W, it was something new, and in reflection it was a necessary thing in terms of just living my life and doing what is practical. We'll just have to see if anything ever comes about as a result of it. Doubt it, but I'm monitoring the results for a little while nonetheless.
Hope everyone had a great weekend too -- take care!
