Ginger, thanks for your input. I don't know if W is having an affair. Until I do, I will be under the assumption that she isn't, for now. She denied it when I questioned her about it. I accept her answer. I still maintain that if she is having a PA, it is over. If she is having a PA, it has everything to do with me. She will have chosen someone over me, breaking the promise she made to me the day we got married. Unforgiveable, period. I will not be made a fool of. I am just speaking for myself and I respect anyone who can work through an A. It's just not my way. I pray that she isn't having an A, but should I discover evidence to the contrary, I will end the M with a quickness and never look back. Deep down, I don't think that she is having an A. I know that the possibility is certainly there and that I am being willfully blind. I will no longer contact her. Should she contact me, I will be nice (maybe), but my contacting her is over and done and maybe the M is as well. Some say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. Perhaps I am finally starting to wake up from the dream that we will get back together. This whole sitch is beginning to look like a bad infection that needs to be cut out to save the rest of the body. I apologize if I sound combative. I really do appreciate any input that someone takes the time to give me. I am most angry at myself......
