There and Back, #10

[theotherhalf]

but I miss ml.

Yea what is going on in my sitch is FAR from ML. I would give anything for H to reallykiss me. Without asking. To initiate.

Will it ever happen? Who the hell knows.

At this point I feel I'm on the fence. If I stop initiating, will I loose this connection with H completely? Or will he start to initiate with me. If he does, I will gain much confidence that one day he is going to return.

That is how important I feel this issue is with us. That is why it is so hard for me to stop doing what I am doing. But I will... for now....