theotherhalf, I don't initiate, h does. I actually wonder what would happen if I did initiate sometime. would he back off, feel pursued? or would he be like me, give in to temptation? easier for me to give in, I think, since he is my only source right now.
I suppose in a way I did initiate since I made the grab for the phone that started the whole wrestling match. so in a passive aggressive way, I suppose I did, sort of.
the last time I truly initiated was when I got drunk off my ass on his birthday and wanted goodbye sex. damn good sex that night. hmmm...maybe that's the problem, maybe I need to initiate.
okay, where is my mind going here? I had fully decided this couldn't happen again at all because, eewwww, gross. and now here I am making plans to seduce him?
definitely a good thing that I won't see him for a good 48 hours.
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