Rollar Coasters are no longer fun

[Gingersnap]

I am not sure where this will take my relationship with my husband or what I even want anymore but for the first time I am excited about who I can be without him.

This is the best attitude you can have, Amy! I never want to say a M is hopeless, but yours would take a lot of effort on your H's part and right now he's just not capable. But what matters is that you are going to be fine no matter what. I'm just coming around to this realization as well. And it's exciting and a tad scary, since it cools my desire to *fix* our M. I just keep reminding myself that I'm not the one standing in the way of healing our M. You aren't either. You've done all you can so the very best you can do for you and your kids is to work on your own life!

HUGS!!