sara, I knew I remembered someone saying that! can I ask you, are you happy he is back? really, truly happy? do you worry about him? trust him? I just don't know. I see such a long road back for us, should we even go that route (which I still highly doubt). I just wonder if I even still want it....would I be happy with him again.
mark, my take on it was he was afraid I would call her...he doesn't want that relationship jeapardized. granted, he didn't say that in august, or whenever the storyland thing was (last time we had sex). I definitely think he is afraid of making a choice either way...me or her. but honestly everything he has shown me has shown me he has chosen her.
either way, i won't call ow. I called her a few times last spring (goes to voice mail, she won't pick up), but that was when I was an emotional wreck and going off on her or essentially telling her he was all hers.
I'll tell you, my curiosity is working overtime on what was on his phone that he didn't want me to see. could be that he simply doesn't want his being with her confirmed or the like. but now my mind is wandering to places it shouldn't. I did tease him at first that was there a lot of gt hearts jc crap that was on it last spring. he said actually, no. but I wonder what is on it...wonder if its crap about me. wonder if its a plan about the future. I suppose it could be a ton of things...including them making their own plans, or having problems. could be anything. so best stop thinking about it I guess.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
