What a good year this has been.....

[forever21]

Thanks, HS!! I really appreciate your support. Yeah, H was definitely being an @$$. He seems to be on more of a nice streak at the moment, since I managed to put the mirror up for him to look in last weekend. On the career front... I am still working on that. Car shopping now. Not the easiest when I don't have an income to make payments, but need a car in order to start working.

Hey FLTC. I'm glad it is good for you to see familiar names. Sometimes it's the simplest things that help, huh? So good to read your update and know you are doing alright and coming here for support. Take good care of you, and thank you so much for what you are doing.


Like I mentioned, I've been car shopping. Trying to decide what car I should buy. Image seems to make a difference in Real Estate. Looks like my best bet is a higher end car while not offending anyone with the choice in vehicle. Basically, the goal is to look successful and professional while not giving the impression you make too much money. Sounds easy. Ha. I'm lucky that I need new wheels anyway.

I am about to text my H in response to a text I got from him last night. He was saying that he's going to need to talk to me in the next couple days about financial stuff. This is a little unusual (as he just had a payday) and I'm not sure what he might have in mind. He ended with an ILY, and hoped all is good. I gave myself time to prepare, so I'm only now getting back to him. I'm looking forward to hearing what he has to say, and don't have any expectations. I am not going to offer any solutions either, just listen.

It's been a bit confusing with him again lately. I'm not sure what to think. I do know that I'm still on the fence myself as to whether I should let this man back into my life and give him yet another chance with me. He is still really good at telling me he loves me but not acting as if he wants to reconcile now... always putting it off, I think. It has managed to work on me though, in keeping me from filing for D. I really don't know what to do, as everything that comes to my mind seems like an ultimatum to me. Anywho, on with my life and not worrying about him.