There and Back, #10

[mkultra]

I guess it is true what they say that the affair is not about the sex or even the affair partner but rather the wayward person's own self esteem. Morgan, your H hsa real self esteem issues. Don't they all. Do not beat yourself for ML to your own H and father of your children. he is confused and you can ML to him all you want. I WOULDN"T but you are still attracted to him and you two go waaayyy back. He has his reasons for not leaving the OW but if you do not want to share him then you obviously do have a few chips. Why oh why does he have so much access to you unless you want it. Remember we are masochists in these cheeseless tunnels. If ou want him for a sex buddy, by all means go for it. Use him. Do it, otherwise date someone else so that you will not be lonely. I am sure you will not because you will be thinking that no one else can hold a candle but I think he secretly likes the drama he is stirring up. I do not think it is an accident that he mentioned you caling his OW. Doe sthat confirm that they are still together? I would throw up if I saw the disgusting things on my H's cell phone. Can you imagine these young kids nowadays take nudie pics of each other and send them. F$ck them.