Update: Went by W house after church and OM answered the door. W came out but I said that I did not know that she had company and I would talk to her later. I was devestated and shocked, but I did not make a scene. In the past I would have hurt OM, badly. I was proud that I was able to leave without incident, although I shattered my windshield with my fist (dumb). W called me to explain that it was not what it looked like. OM was a friend of her girlfriend who had left prior to my arrival. I am glad I kept my cool as it would have only strengthend her resolve to get a D. MIL told me that W stated that she doubts that she could ever find anyone who loved her as much as I did and she did not want to be on the dating scene again. Not sure what to make of these statements.
After running some errands I went back to W house. We chit chatted about 30 - 45 minutes. Nothing serious, joking and small talk. I had her laughing and I enjoyed myself. She told me I looked tan and that she thought I looked 'fine'. I left before overstaying my welcome.
I am so confused. I know that W could be lying about OM. If she is, all bets are off and I will file for D yesterday. Others here may disagree but that is something that attacks my very manhood. D papers have been signed for over a month yet there has been no talk of filing them although I have told her that if she wants it, lets get it over with. There also has been no talk of getting back together either. I know that this process is a marathon and not a sprint. Its just that I am growing tired of this 'not knowing'. Is she seeing whats out there and if she cannot find anything better, come back to me? I have no idea what I should do next. I am seriously considering filing the D papers myself and at least I will know. I am not sure how much longer I can take this.....
