Funny that you posted that joke Agent99.. I was thinking almost the same thing last night!
I think you are obsessing over your H and revolving your life around him, and you'll continue to be a emotional up/down mess until you stop that. (having lived it myself).
Oldtimer asked me once how many times I had to jump in front of the bus and let myself get run over before I started taking care of myself. I think it's time to ask yourself the same question.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread