The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 5

[mkultra]

Journaling:
You know when you are married and something goes wrong so you get mad at your spouse? That also happened last night. All three of my "dates" almost flaked last night for different reasons. I thought about how I had to jump through hoops to get someone to go with me to my reunion. I do not even know why I wanted to go. I see all my close high school friends all the time. The rest of those people are practically strangers. I guess I just had to prove to myself I could do yet another things sans spouse. But I did miss him. I did get angry that I no longer have a steady escort and that I have to wait all night for my friend's babysitter or my other friend to find a dress and for one friend to stop flaking. It was OK. It is weird going without a date. No cute single guys my age. Sad face. This will sound horrible, but before my break up, I thought about the 20th and how I could get my H not to go because I was ashamed of the way he looked and dressed. I guess I should have been careful what I wished for but he really does look like a weasel more and more in my mind. I miss the beautiful man that I loved. I really do miss that one not this one. I know you all know how I feel.