He's on Match.com

[Trixi]

I don't know what feels right. None of this feels right.

There are moments, though, that I imagine living in that other house and I get a little bit excited. I imagine having friends over; changing out light fixtures; painting some walls; making it a cozy little nest. I lose weight; I am happy.

Of course, then I have to take it one step further and imagine that H becomes curious about what I am doing; comes over and sees I am doing really great and realizes that in fact, he would be making the biggest mistake of his life to leave me. And then he would court me and I would move very slowly.
Ahhhh...what a nice fantasy.

Then there are these thoughts: I move in and am lonely beyond comprehension. I try to date but no one measures up to my H. He screws someone else, decides he is very happy with her-files for divorce and he lives happily ever after and I die alone.

No, nothing seems at all right about this situation. If he said today "Ok, I'm coming home to work on the marriage" I would be scared out of my mind too. (Of course, since i know he's just been active on match, I wouldn't believe him anyway.)