Now I've done it.... again #4?

[nephartiti]

Ok, Maybe I'm not FAT, but still flabby around the middle. :P


Feeling unsure of myself today. I hate this feeling.I have to nip it in the bud because it so easily goes to obsessing about what he is doing.

I'm trying to just let go and have "faith". It's hard. I do believe he was being sincere the other day. I just think there are other forces at work here. Tuesday he left saying he would be coming every 1-2 days, and he hasn't even called.

Trying not to obsess. I just have this fear that he is getting an apartment with OW and not by himself. Just a fear. I have to let it go at that. If it turns out to be true, there is nothing I can do about it.

I just keep thinking about Sting. The deeper he gets, the harder he'll hold on. Yet he says there is no one.

OK, STOP. Re-focus.

I'm going to shower, take care of some business. Then it's off to the farmer's market. Later, we are supposed to go to SIL's (Lord help me keep the convo off H) to help get ready for the party tomorrow.

Have a great Saturday everyone!