Almost 3 Months Separated

[soul_mate]

Picked up S from school today and took him home W stayed home with my sick Daughter. Anyway got there she was very freindly and chatty it is almost feels like she is glad that we can be freinds like I have accepted the D and what not and things will remain like this. Honesty it is very difficult and painful to remain friends with her and I still hold a lot of resment towards her, which I don't let her see. I accept all of the wrong I have done in our R and am really trying to learn from my past mistakes.

I know she is very much occupied by chatting with this OM now and this of course adds to my pain. If she starts openly seeing him or someone else I really don't see how I can reamin friends with her. I can be nice for the kids, but not friends. I ended up leaving pretty early it is just hard hanging out being friends knowing that she wants a D and is interested in OM.