Yoyo, Thanks for the kind words. I think I am the lucky one being their daddy. I really have been trying to pour as much as me into them as I possible can. Then I have been trying to focus on myself, gal,and try not to get down. I really have been able to focus at work and finally feel like I am back in the game there. I just need to keep being the best dad that I can and try to move on. It is not what I want but I have to accept it for what it is.
LWB, I love putting my girls to bed. How did the first night for your DD go in her new bed? I really hope that the new bed does not change our bedtime routine.
FIB, Thanks for stopping by. A lot of what you posted is things that I had to wrestle with. Did I cause this? Did I just make a pour choice in my w? Did we truly grow apart? I can go on. In the end I probably will never really understand why. I am OK with that. Sure I still cry out to God asking why. But maybe it is not for me to understand. Maybe it is not my time to understand. I don't know. I am a bit of jock, so like I did while playing sport I left it all on the, that way I can always look at myself for doing my best. That is what I did in my M. I gave it my all, maybe not always perfect but I gave it my all.I can look at myself and know that I did the best that I could.It just was not enough in the end.
FIB.. I am not going to lie to you it still hurts like hell. But I did the best that I could during my M and then in trying to save it. I think the same is true for you. Now we both have to focus totally on our kids and ourselves, then make the best decisions with that in mind.
I wish you all the best. If I get out your way anytime soon I would love to shake your hand.
Journaling: I hope this post is coheirant sine I am doing this on my phone.
I am off to the races tomorrow. It should be a blast the next few days. it will be fast cars and fast woman....ok I am just kidding about that last part.
Tonight I have my girls and we are going to celebrate my moms birthday with her. Tomorrow I fly out for the weekend.
