Plank removed from my eye, too late for WAW? 7

[Heimlich]

I don't feel like it would be cheating or an A at this point for either of us at this point.

Yeah. Never thought I'd feel that way, but here I am. Of course, never thought I'd be heading towards D either. Life is full of surprises. Have a good time with young Mr. JS tomorrow. We could probably pull a pool together with an over/under for how many pubs you actually make it to. Out of idle curiousity, if you meet a woman named Kaitlyn at your pub crawl (old co-worker of mine). About your age, short, a little round, extremely nice, reddish hair, tell her BD from Germantown said hi, if you're so inclined. Met her for drinks in Boston back in April and she mentioned that she had helped organize a pub crawl or two.

Not much to report on the W front. Every night this week when she's picked up the girls, I've been cordial and friendly, but not attepting to make small talk. No, "how was your day" or "you look nice". Just, hello, girls, get ready, hugs and bye.

Wed I asked to talk to her outside for a minute about scheduling (feels weird to do it in front of the girls). Going to friends for UFC Saturday and wanted to ask her if I could pick them up earlier than normal Saturday (saturday to saturday this week so that I can dress as heatmiser next weekend, woo hoo) and hang out earlier. She got really snippy -- I had forgotten about High School Musical/Disney on Ice thing she's taken them to. Said simply, Sorry, forgot about that, what time will you be finished? She immediately apologized for getting defensive. Oooooommmmmm, calm works, eh? Sorted out the scheduling, said adios and they left.

I didn't feel too good yesterday (something i ate didn't like me at all) so was pretty low key. Was playing Monopoly Jr with Casey when she came in with Lauren from girl scouts. We talked for a few minutes, asked me if I was OK enough to watch the girls (lauren must've told her I was feeling bad). Was sitting down, she came over and patted my shoulder before leaving.

Today, more of same. Came in, had the girls ready with their stuff by the door. She actually made a little small talk about folks here forgetting how to drive in the rain. Talked a few minutes, said I'll call her about tomorrow for timing regarding dropping off the girls, bye.

Huge part of me is still in love with the woman, but I feel more and more distant from her daily. She's been wanting space; she's getting all she wants. Feeling pretty OK with it too.

BD