New guy stuggling

[Aaronous]

Wow, I can't believe that 5 months have passed since my last post. Time does seem to fly whether you want it to or not. Here is a quick update...EW still living in FL with parents. We have been divorced now for 6 months. Not an hour goes by that I don't think about my family and miss them terribly. I miss my kids mostly. Interestingly enough, although it would be nice to be back with my EW, it is not the end of the world if it does not happen. I kind of see her and all the anger she has toward me and am not sure if she will ever be able to let it go. We both made mistakes. We both could have done better. We could have made it work. We probably still could. I forgive her entirely for any hurt she may have caused me. I would be willing to try again.

As for me, I actually am seeing someone now. She is very nice and is a very special lady. We are taking things very slowly because I don't want to rush things. At times I still feel very confused about the whole thing. If my EW were to come to me today and want to try again, I don't know what I would do. Sometimes I wish I had not started this relationship with this other woman. I don't want to hurt her. I guess taking it slow is the way to go.

I feel that I am learning a lot about myself. I found a really great book. It is called the Ties that Free. Very interesting.